growing weary

walk me through this world
i can't explain these heavy steps
can't explain the pain that smiles
beside me
friends, old lovers
i've let wrongs go where they will
who has the strength to stand aside
when strength is all he owns
we know that breath will follow breath
we know how weary grows
God's confessor

i carry secrets like any man
and i accept the comforts of the dark
cherish hours far from day's hard sun
that righteous fellow
eats my sins for God
swallows them before me
tells me to go forth
and flourish
but where can anyone so heavy
find a welcome sanctuary
aren't those doors fixed
with implacable guardians
?